One thing I realised doing #philosophy for the past 12 years is that creativity, logical/mathematical thinking, and philosophical (or I guess abstract thinking) are three separate capabilities. I can't write good novels or easily pick up coding, but it's natural for me to think through arguments and objections, build theories, thought experiments, etc.
That being said, maybe it's just a matter of practice and... getting used to it
And I'm reminded how much early western Socratic practice was a lifestyle — enacting a kind of virtue uncovered and embodied through questioning and "not knowing."
Lifestyle practices were explored in the Cyrenaics and Cynics and Stoics, and later the Neoplatonists.
The latter's practices were subsequently incorporated in overtly religious currents, as in the meditative "unknowing" of the via negativa contemplatives.